This is an point of self-reflection. However, it feels very stream of consciousness so im going to just go with it. I think for most of my life, ive gone through different stages of self identity. Quiet and insecure, outspoken and loud, cancer patient, gay guy, surf photographer, irresponsible and (heavily) drug dependent college student, […]

(DISCLAIMER: I am not a certified medical or mental health professional, this blog is meant to be shared as a personal experience and reflection) Im back with my thoughts after the longest break from this blogging space. I took a much needed sabbatical from sharing my thoughts publicly. I was hard on myself for taking […]

(DISCLAIMER: I am not a certified medical or mental health professional, this blog is meant to be shared as a personal experience and reflection) Im back! after taking a two-week long break from this. I’ve found that this blog has been equally daunting as it is fulfilling. Its like an emotional vaccine, and I feel […]

(DISCLAIMER: I am not a medical professional, this blog is meant to be shared as a personal experience and reflection) For most of my life, I can remember living in a constant state of stress. From about the age of 7 years old, I was always in a state of fight or flight. The cause […]

Please read the previous post before reading this, if you haven’t already https://blakeeverettcrawford.com/2024/07/10/my-initial-coming-out-story-why-speaking-your-truth-can-save-your-life/ After my initial coming out to my father, I spent the rest of our two week European excursion in relative peace. I had done something brave. I discovered the power of speaking my truth and the freedom I could gain from being […]

It was the summer of 2011, after my freshman year of high-school. My dad, brother and I were en route to go to Europe for two weeks. My 15 year-old self was ecstatic about going out of the country for the first time. However, as I was entering the middle of my teenage years, the […]

It was early March 2023 on the North Shore of O’ahu. The day of the Eddie Aikau Big Wave Surf Invitational, the most beautiful and sacred event I have ever had the privilege of attending. We had spent the last 15 hours camping out for this event in a Vintage Westfalia Surf van. Witnessing pro […]

It was February 14, 2023. One day before the anniversary of my cancer diagnosis (but a few years after being cured). You will find I reference this experience a lot. It isn’t for attention or pity and it isn’t an experience I feel negatively about anymore. It is an important event in my life, one […]

When I set foot back on the mainland, I was too disoriented and jet lagged to realize the gravity of my life decision. I had left a place so near and dear to my heart. Two short years had brought intense transformation, growth and lifelong friendships (the ones that make you believe in multiple lifetimes). […]